Opinions of a murri woman...

Opinions of a murri woman...

Thursday, May 3, 2012

Weight Loss and Me, 9 weeks later...

In these past 9 weeks, I’ve gone through the many lows and the highs of a weight loss journey.

As of today, I’ve lost a total of 8.5kgs with my new lifestyle of healthy eating and exercising... No tricks, no gimmicks, just good old fashioned hard work and dedication. I wish I could say it’s been easy but when I embarked on this mission 9 weeks ago, I went into it wanting to change my life and it’s only now that I’m feeling like that might actually happen... It’s been FAR from easy....

Even though I’m down 8.5kgs, I still don’t believe it... I see myself in the mirror everyday so I don’t see much of a change unlike family and friends who all say they are starting to see the effects... As good as it is to hear from your family and friends ‘Oh you’ve lost weight or you’re looking well’, I still want to be able to tell myself that and see it with my own two eyes...

 My goal is ultimately to lose 20-25kgs... Yes, before you say anything, I DO have an extra 20-25kgs to lose and when I lose it, I WON’T be a stick or an unhealthy weight, I’ll be at my healthy BMI weight (body mass index for those who aren’t playing the same health game as me)... 25 kilo’s was a big goal I set myself when I began this weight loss journey and I didn’t think that it was possible, but over these past few weeks of pushing myself to exhaustion every day, to adjusting to a new diet and life style, I can see that If I want it bad enough, I will work my arse off (literally) to get there and maybe, just maybe will achieve my ultimate weight loss goal...
I’m not pushing myself to say I will get there in the next 2 months... This journey that I’m on isn’t a 12 week challenge, it’s not a fad; I plan on doing this for the rest of my life... The weight took a lifetime to put on and isn’t going to come off over night... I’ve given myself to September to have lost at least 15kilo’s... Why so late? I guess I just want to leave room for error and for general life struggles that I will no doubt face along the way that will affect my training or eating... This isn’t being negative, this is being realistic about what can and won’t happen...

The hardest thing so far has been the adjustment to a new lifestyle... Of getting up every day, sometimes earlier than I need to be up, in order to get my work out done... Balancing my food and discovering what works for my body and what doesn’t... It’s still trial and error in that department.... I’ve had tears in the process, successes along the way, many downs, sore muscles, aches and pains, good food and bad, training sessions that have me on the brink of death, but in the end I have managed to drop 8.5kgs in 9 weeks, the most weight I’ve ever lost in my life... The good news is, I’m getting faster and stronger every day, and I can go shopping without craving junk food...

The biggest thing so far is becoming educated about healthy foods and the general nutrition side of a healthy life style... Weight loss is succeeded not with slogging it out at the gym or jogging every day, but with what we’re eating... It’s true that we’re so naive about what we put into our bodies, because we simply don’t know what we’re doing... It really does come back to education about nutrition and the all round affects of each individual food we CHOSE to put into our bodies....

One of the hardest things to give up has been alcohol, but it doesn’t mean I’ve gone completely without... I’ve just replaced those carbed up, calorie loaded beers that I used to drink with low calorie Vodka, soda and lime drinks when I’ve needed too... I’ve been able to say no to family and friends about drinking heavily or going out and having blinder nights like I used too, and yes, it has made me seem a little boring and made me the sober driver each and every time, but my choices are exactly that, choices... I can chose to drink and get smashed for the night and have a mad night, or I can chose to resist the urge and temptation and stay sober and win on the scales in the next week.... The results speak for themselves...

I didn’t believe my cousins when they told me they can see my weight loss in and around my face and waist... Even though the scales say a lower number and the tape measure says a few inches down, I didn’t believe my own achievement until I tried on a pair of my old shorts the other day and nearly had to reach for my belt because they were lose. This is the first taste of real success that I have felt since beginning and it felt goooodddd.... I got so used to just out growing my old clothes that I never really kept any of them anymore because I never thought I’d fit them again... It sounds so cliché but it’s the little wins like this that make it all worth it....

I still don’t have a gym membership or someone here to motivate me everyday... It’s a battle of the body and the brain every morning to be able to self motivate myself to get out of bed, throw on my gym clothes and work out on whatever I’ve got here at home... I’ve reached the stage where I’m craving a workout and feeling guilty if I haven’t put in as much work as I know I should’ve...

I still have a very long way to go and it’s not going to happen over night... I only dropped half a kilo this week... I am disappointed but I know I can’t be because my training and eating weren’t on point like it has been these past few weeks... It’s true, what you get out is what you put in... No excuses... Just choices....

Everything we do or don’t do is a step closer or a step further away from our goals.... Every day and every week is a chance to change your life and to be honest, this weight loss is probably the only success I seem to be having in my life right now and I’m more focused every time I take a hit on the scales to get back up and do it again, because failure isn’t an option with my weight anymore... I can’t let it be...

I’m ready to lace up my fluro orange nike runners and get my training done for the day... Thank you to all of those who have encouraged me and congratulated me on my efforts so far... Without the support of my family and friends, I probably would’ve given up a long time ago... A special shout out to my girls Noella, Nerida and Kodie who have heard me bitch and whinge about my loss and struggles and who have offered support in the ways of diet, workout advice and general sister to sister advice.. Love and appreciate you three forever....

 Anyways, enough talk, more action... Until next time... Train insane...


One love, one life

 -Cee- X