Opinions of a murri woman...

Opinions of a murri woman...

Thursday, October 28, 2010

'Dare to Dream'....




I have a signed autograph by legendary boxer 'Rubin Hurricane Carter' that reads, 'To Carly... Dare to dream always', Love 'Rubin Hurricane Carter'.... I've had that signature behind glass since 2002, and it's been my motivation in everything I have every achieved in my life since then.... Yesterday was no different... After 250 days, or 8 months and 8 days, and after 6,000 hours, I finally completed my Graduate Diploma of radio course at the Australian Film Television and Radio School....AND MY GOD DOES IT FEEL GOOD...

It's 4:51am here in Sydney, and for the past three hours, I have been awake, tossing and turning. The aircon's weren't switched on last night and I'm feeling hot and bloated from the beer I drank with my second family yesterday afternoon. I've tried going back to sleep numerous times tonight, but reality is, I'm wide awake with a thousand thoughts running through my head.

Yesterday was my very last day of school. The place I've been too nearly everyday since I arrived in Sydney.. The place I've grown to love, and learnt so much from. I finished all of my assignments and went to drop off a microphone and officially sign out of AFTRS... I did so, but not before I was bailed up in the staff room by the head of the radio department who said that I have to be in Sydney for graduation because it's been a BIG Year for me... At that moment, I kinda broke down.... After all these months of struggling on centrelink, living outta a black fulla hostel, with assignments coming out of my ears, in a place I felt I never really fitted into, It had all hit me at that moment....

That conversation was my 'Goodbye' speech from my lecturers, and anyone who knows me well, knows that I hate goodbyes.... The biggest thing that hit me was when she said 'She'd had been waiting for a person like me to come to that school, and now that I've gone through the year, she couldn't be happier'... This to me is my success for the year, and she's right.... I had a lot of people who doubted me, and a lot that supported me through out this study year and now that it's all over, I feel a HUGE Sigh of relief, joy and achievement.

To be the very first Indigenous Student to graduate at a fulltime level in the radio department in the schools history is something that I can't even fathom just yet. I knew if I completed my studies, that I would be the first, but it hasn't hit me that I actually did it.... The greatest thing from that achievement is that I am being a good role model for my little brother and nephews and niece, and that my family are all proud of me back in Queensland....


Handing in my student card, my locker key, my transport concession card (that hurt the most) and signing out of the building like I was never really there yesterday, was hard, but it felt good and was the final step in saying goodbye to the study year.

As I drank beer with three of my study mates later that day, I looked across at each of them to see love, friendship, fear, sadness and even a few tears. This was a relief to me, cause at least I wasn't the only one feeling it... Now this all may sound pretty dramatic for anyone reading this who didn't go to my school and go through the journey as me and 9 other people in my class have this year, but it's been one heck of a rollar coaster for each and every one of us.... Despite the stress, nearly quitting mid year, my bad living arrangments and the pressure of it all, this year has been without a doubt, THE BEST YEAR OF MY LIFE.....




This weekend I move out of the hostel I've called home for the past 8 months... I was taking down my pictures from the wall the other day and packing my suitcase to move for the third time this year and it hit me that this was another chapter of my life that added to the joy and stresses of the year. When i first moved in, I didn't know anyone and was reluctant to even come and stay, but I had no where else to go and limited money, so I took a chance and it turned out to be the best thing I could've done.. I met people who have become like family to me and without them and their support all year, I wouldn't of made it this far into the year. John, Yaleela, Barbie, Katayla, Kate, Rob, and Wayne, thank you all for making me feel like I've had a second family in Sydney... I love you all.... To my dear friend Noella green who is taking me in and letting me crash on her couch until I find my feet again, I OWE YOU MY LIFE, and I'm not even joking.... Without your generosity, support and feeds this year, I would be homeless and probably back in Queensland doing nothing.. Thank you for motivating me at times where I needed it the most... You are a friend for life!!! On Friday when I move out of this hostel, I think I will shed a little tear for the place, but I know that it has served it's purpose and that I am destined for bigger and better things.





So what now.. What's next you're probably wondering. Yeah, it's a funny question, I've been wondering that myself lately.... I could sit here and think about my future, I could stress, and freak out, or I can do what I always do and just let the universe take care of what it needs to. With every door shut, another opens, so now I wait.... I wait to see what's around the corner and what's in store for me......

One of the biggest things I will take away from this year, is the passion I have now, to go on and make GREAT Radio... I don't want to make Okay radio, I want to make GREAT Radio, Emotional radio, radio that will change thought patterns and sterotypes. I want to strive for more than just an announcer. I want to lead, I want to shape and I want to live and breathe the Australian Radio Industry... That's all I know for now, so until then, I'm taking it all one day at a time....

November 30th, 2010 is the day I graduate from the Australian Film Television and Radio School....To fulfill a goal I set out to achieve so long ago feels amazing and undescribable... Maybe even enough to keep me awake at 5:39am....


One Love, One Life....

Friday, October 22, 2010

A Black girl's final day in Goulburn- Day 6


When I arrived in Goulburn 6 days ago, I was slack, tired and really not motivated. After nearly a week in this sunny town, I'm ready to say goodbye.

Today was my last day at Eagle Fm... I think I had a better shift then my previous days on air and am quite sad to leave. Through out the week, it's been great getting to know a small, yet tight team of people at 2GN and Eagle.

A town built on farming and a lack of water, the radio station (whether they know it or not) breaths life into the community and they're great at what they do.

One thing I am disappointed in, is that while I was here I didn't get to see the huge Ram's ball's that my lecturer kindly told me about before I came here.. This place is famous for its 'Goulburn valley fruits and it's huge ram (and its huge ram's balls) and I didn't get to see either... Oh well, I'm sure this isn't the last that Goulburn has seen of me....

To 'Guy My', Breaky presenter and all round nice guy... Thankful for your patience and help throughout the week. You've been more than helpful and really took me under your wing from the first day, so thank you.

And to Ryan you dirty Victorian... Cheers to you for the same. I look forward to keeping in contact with the both of you... If your ever in Sydney, look me up, a round of drinks are on me (if you can keep up)

And to Goulburn. I have one more night in you (that sounds rude... hehe), but thanks for the hospitality. I'll leave here tomorrow with a new appreciation for commercial regional radio ..... So what now??

To Sydney..... And beyond thats what....


One Love, One Life....

Thursday, October 21, 2010

A Black girl in Goulburn- Day 5


Another day down, one more to go... No more 6am church bells.. Can't wait for that....

Day 5 in Goulburn, and today I had a great day. A better on air shift, friendships growing with the announcers, and SUUSSSHHIII...Thats right, Sushi. I've been here for how many days now and I only just found out that there is a sushi shop in Goulburn... This has changed my whole view on this town...

'Centro Goulburn', I love you...

Besides a few voice overs, and a bad batch of 'Lemon Lime Iced tea' instead of peach flavour' my day was pretty laid back...

Oh I forgot to mention.... I GOT MY USHER ticket today... I'm PUMPED...... Can't wait to spend one night in march next year with my best mate Jo, seeing a guy who's music I've loved for over a decade... It's been the perfect way to cap off the day.... One more day at Eagle Fm then it's back to Syd-n-knee for this little black girl.... Till tommorrow....

One Love, One Life....

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

A Black girl in Goulburn- Day 4



So apparently up until today, I've been spelling Goulburn as 'Golburn'.... Oh well.... Moving on.....

Day 4 in Goulburn and I have some good news to report... I FOUND A KOORI... Yep, not an urban myth in this town after all. Out of all the Koori's to walk through the radio station today, 'Gavin Jones', the CEO Of VIBE Australia (organiser of the deadly awards, vibe alive, vibe magazine, deadly sounds and vibe 3 on 3) came walking through.

He and two others, Michael an ex NIDA Student and a producer who's name I've forgotten were there for a few hours doing a voice over for a new series of short doco's.... They needed the studio to record the voice overs... I just thought it was weird that all this week I was on the search for a black face in this town, and until today, I hadn't seen one... Funny thing was, I was only talking about the deadly awards to one of the broadcasters an hour before Gavin walked in...It was great to sit and yarn with him. I think I was just excited to be around blackfullas...

Goulburn are about to experience their first Vibe 3 on 3 challenge in a few weeks, Something I think the town will benefit from... Bit of culture never hurt anyone I say... The producer who was with Gavin was especially interesting. He's been a film and television producer for over 30 years and has produced many programs like 'Missing persons unit, to ABC series Gardening australia AND He was an ex AFTRS Student. Small world... Chatting with him was that interesting that I wish I could've had a flash mic handy to record what he was saying.. Definately an inspirational guy.

On top of an exciting afternoon of visitors and a ham sanga for lunch with yogurt, I did my first on air shift today on Eagle Fm... Basic music presenting plugging just about every business in town, but thats the nature of commercial radio I guess... Although I didn't feel like I had a good shift today, I'm grateful to be learning a new style. The staff meeting where the boss said, 'Give us a 30 second sell of yourself' was interesting as well today. I was my fabulous hilerious self, and everybody laughed.. (well I like to think they did, i think i had a black out mid speech. Kidding)...

Besides all of that, it's another lonely night in Golburn, sorry I mean GOULBURN... Thinking about doing assignments or eating biscuits with tea and facebooking.... I already know the outcome... Until tomorrow...

One Love, One Life....

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

A black girl in Golburn- Day 3


It's the little things that make up a country town... Like the parks that no one sits in.. The uneven footpaths, those holden utes done up with spotlights, the Go Low store, the 100 year old pet shop, rough looking tradies and watching the same cars drive up and down the main street doing lappies.

Golburn, day 3... This morning it was about 7 degrees and before I reached the radio station,I literally couldn't feel my toes... I headed into the radio station to begin my second day of work experience with numb toes and fingers and was keen to get my head around the new system...

I did my first voice over today (which i stuffed up several times) for 'Miss Country Australia'.... I think this might be similar to the 'Maze Festival' in Atherton. (For those that don't know, my country hick town holds an event every year entitled 'The Maze Fest', where people submit a float in the parade and on those floats sits an entrant for 'Maze Queen'... These contestants are usually the popular year 12 girls from Atherton High... Its all very American and Crap... But its tradition and a good laugh)... Doing that voice over for 'Miss Country Girl' took me straight back to my country memories...

Anyways, moving on... So after my failure in voice over (despite the fact that I got a destinction in voice over this year in my graduate diploma of radio course), I mucked around with the stations incredibly bad editing system (explained to me how crap it is by the stations broadcasters/production managers) but it was fun to be doing something instead of sitting around like yesterday...

The time didn't go as slow today and before the afternoon was out, I found myself behind the seat of 'Eagle Fm's' panel voice tracking (pre-recording talk breaks)...

I've been told that I'm on air tommorrow from 9am-12pm, so I've got a few voice breaks to write up tonight... Should be interesting...I've been told that I'm gonna be the first female voice on Eagle FM in over 10 or so years, so either way they should be happy to hear me on air LOL


In my previous blog, I mentioned I was gonna be on the hunt for Black faces in this town. I'm yet to see one, but I was told today, that apparently the Program Director at the radio station I'm at is a Koori.... He's away on holidays till next monday... Sounds like an urban legend if you ask me... I wanna see at least one black face before I leave this town or I will label it a G-UP of a town forever...

I won't give up the hunt...

Till tomorrow....

One Love, One Life.... XX

Monday, October 18, 2010

A Black girl in Golburn- Day 2

Golburn, day 2....

So before I say anything else.... Golburn, what in the f**k is it with you and church bells sounding every hour, even at 6am?? GOSHHH!!!

So after a rocky wake up, I got ready and took to the bustling (no not really) streets of Golburn to find my work place for the week, Radio 2GN, and Eagle Fm...

It was about 10 degrees this morning and me being 'sydney' these days, forgot to pack a pair of tights... Lucky the radio station is about a 45min walk from my motel. On the way, I passed some lovely old chaps who said, 'Good morning' with a rosey smile... This put me in a good mood until I started getting lost....

Yes thats right, I got lost in a country town... shame on me.... After cuttin up a few suburban streets, I found the radio station and settled in for the day.

Although there wasn't alot for me to do today, the team made me feel at home and promised me some air time later this week, so I'm looking forward to working along side the town's two broadcasters....

Besides that, I'm settled in for another cold night, alone in this 80's style motel room.... For some reason they have a mural on the wall of a sea side town.... Why they have this on the wall in a town which is no where near the ocean, I don't know....




On another note, I'm yet to see a black face in this town... Am I the only black girl in Golburn? Cant be?!.... Tomorrow I will go blackfulla hunting in search of some Koori's.... Till then, I'm off to catch some ZZZ's before tomorrow....

One Love, One Life....xo

Sunday, October 17, 2010

What's next?



As I write this blog, I'm laying down on a slightly itchy hotel room bed in the Rural town of 'Golburn'... Only a few hours ago, I was awake at 5am in a 3 bedroom mansion on the waterfront of Sydney Harbour, then behind the microphone at the Australian Film Television and Radio School, presenting along side my dear friend Kyran, for what would be our last simulation air time for the year....

Today we said goodbye to our 'Next Fm' radio station... A radio station we built from scratch as a team and successfully ran for 9 days. I haven't worked so hard all year, but looking back on it, I will class it as one of the best moments in my career so far.

Two hours after I finished my last shift, I was on a bus to Golburn for my week of 'Work experience' at '2GN'... I was meant to catch a train but theres track work being done at the moment and all passengers were told we were travelling by bus...

Sitting on my seat, I look around to see I'm surrounded by old ladies with white hair, glasses and old guys nodding off, then a ringtone sounds from someones phone, a country song.... Not long after, a message tone, the sound of a cow mooing'..... From that point on I knew the country was where I was headed....

So after 4 hours of stopping at every shit house town on the way down, I finally made it....Driving into Golburn, I see nothing but green hills, dry grey trees, heritage buildings, a cemetary, and a HUGE Jail..... As we pull up to the train station and get off the bus, I take in the views and think to myself... HHHHMMMM, this place kinda reminds me of somewhere.... Locals, utes, small country banks and shops, a woolies where no one uses the self check in registers and instead they use the check out chick they know, the hotel guy who says, 'Hows it going', when I check into my 'MOTEL'..... Yep, theres definately something about this town indeed....

Oh, now I know, it's EXACTLY like my home town of Atherton.... For a town I've never been to before, I feel strangely at home.... I just came from woolies and am now laying back in my 1.2 star motel. It's not much but it's home for the next week, as I begin my journey after 'Next Fm'.... Leaving today on the bus myself, I felt sad and soooo alone... Sad that my journey at radio school is coming to an end,and sad about leaving my friends at home..





This year has just flown... It seems like only yesterday I arrived at school, full of fear, determination, optimism and doubt.... As I start my work placement tomorrow I'll be thinking of all of my fellow classmates scattered across the country in there own workplacements....

To Kyran, Maxy, Sarah H, Miles, Sarah N, Maz, Alex, Gina, and steve.... I'm so grateful that I got to learn along side some of the countries best broadcasters. I Will cherish every moment, every laugh, every bitch and every drink we shared together... You have all been like a second family to me all year and there is no way I would've finished the year without all of your encouragement and support. I wish you all nothing but the best for the future, and hope to keep in contact with each and every one of you over the years to come....




And to Golburn and radio 2GN..... I'll meet you tomorrow... For now, It's chicken ceaser salad time....

One Love, One Life....