Opinions of a murri woman...

Opinions of a murri woman...

Thursday, May 27, 2010

Accept Or Ignore This Friendship?



FACEBOOK, MYSPACE, BEBO are what we all know as 'Social Networking Sites'... Linking our friendships online in the cyber world... But are they a gift or a burdon?? This is the question I ask myself, as I delete another 'friend' off my facebook...

Okay, I'm not going to lie... I love facebook... Some would say I'm... Ummmm, what's the word I'm looking for.. Ummmm.... ADDICTED?? Yes, correct... I first started using facebook in the year 2006... Over the years, I have grown to love this social networking site, sometimes a little too much...

It got me thinking the other day... Remember just a few years ago, when we would meet someone face to face, often in a club, or through friends. From there, the friendship would develope by 'catching up', or 'lets do lunch, or have a drink'... As the weeks would progress, you would get to know that person, then make the decision if you want to keep them in your life, or simply 'delete them'...

One of the problems with society today, is that we're forced to be friends with someone simply because they 'friend requested you' on a social networking site'... There, I said it... Sure alot of people can say 'Ignore', but then are faced with the akward silence the next time you see that person in real life...

Next problem: What is the protocol on adding someone you maybe interested in romantically?? Does it speed up the 'getting to know you process' or does it in fact do more damage, having them know all about you and your daily activities?

We add random people onto our friends list in order to 'keep the peace', to be nice and play nice', but when it comes to our real lives and social circle, we should ask ourselves, 'would we really be friends with that person and want them knowing all of that information'??

Ohhhh and another thing.. This is where it gets complicated... Back in the day (only 5 years ago), before facebook, we each had the power to brush someone out of our lives. If we didn't want that person to find us, then we'd simply stay away from them, or pretend that we were busy when we'd see them in the street.. Now all they have to do is simply punch in our names and they know instantly that we have this many siblings, we 'like' this particular topic, and have joined groups of 'this' description...

Of course there are ways that you can eliminate people off your facebook.. Deleting them would be a start, but have you ever discovered the block button after you delete them? Take it from an expert who has a block list that goes for days, just deleting someone off facebook isn't enough anymore.... Why is this? Once a person discovers they have been deleted off someones page, It can cause them to be slightly... Ummmm how would you put it? Hurt...?? Riggghhhttt....

For all those first time users who are scared to hurt someones feelings by deleting them off your facebook page, all because you would rather save the hassel of a bitter twisted 'why don't you like me anymore' message from someone on your list that never spoke to you or engaged in any conversation on chat with you, then I'd suggest that 'the block button' becomes your new friend...

As fun as they are, Social networking sites often cause more damage than good... In saying that, I love facebook sometimes, and really can't remember what social life was like before our minds got taken over by a simple mini feed and profile... Sad I know...

Reality is, we all love to add a new friend and catch up with mates in the cyber world from the comforts of our own home, but when it comes to deleting an indivdual, we are all guilty of hesitating for a moment and thinking what kind of affects it will have on our real lives outside of the computer screen if we were to see that person again (don't pretend like you don't)....

It all sounds so simple.. It's just a networking site right? That person can never actually catch up with me in real life, and they won't care..... Will they? I say go forward with the deleting, Block them and move on... It's the cyber world, they'll make new friends and eventually they'll forget about you...

So after one too many cyber stalkers and a few angry private messages since the start of the year, I feel it's time to do another clean out of my facebook friends list... Oh and if you're on my friends list and reading this, then you've obviously made the cut.... Until we next chat (probably online)....


One Love, One Life....

Friday, May 14, 2010

Breaking Down Brick Walls


Brick walls.... They come in many shapes and forms... For one, they have bricks, red, white, concrete or emotional... Oh wait, what did she just say??... Yes, I said 'EMOTIONAL BRICK WALLS'... They are the walls I have found to be the most dangerous when you run into them... They have a way of distroying your self esteem and self belief when you feel you can't get over the top of them...

Today I am not ashamed to say I hit a major brick wall. The pressures of study are unbelieveable. And yes I am aware that their are millions around the world experiencing the same, if not worst hardships as I, but today, I let my guard down and just crumbled under the pressure....

I first need to explain that in December 2009, I made the concious decision, a long thought out decision to resign from the one job I had ever known how to do and do well, and put my life in the hands of fate.... I didn't have a plan... My plan was to resign and get the f*ck out of Townsville and start livng instead of existing, that was my plan. I Figured the rest would sort itself out...

2009 was a hard year for me, with many highs and lows... The biggest high was being nominated for a 'Deadly Award' and making it to the top 4 Indigenous Radio Announcers in the country... Although I didn't win, this one single nomination would change my life as we know it....

I knew my time in Indigenous broadcasting was up... I couldn't grow anymore and had achieved everything I possibly could. Even though I loved my job and loved my lifestyle (A life syle that consisted of a weekly paycheck, holidays every few months, my own flat and my own space) it wasn't enough for me anymore, I just wasn't happy... But in October 2009, I decided that money cant buy happiness... Short trips here and there weren't enough to put a smile on my face forever and eventually I would end up feeling the same old bitter twisted feelings of being trapped in a city I hated, all for the sake of making money...Instead of wasting another year of my life doing the same old thing, I simply decided to give it all up and resign...

Back to the thing I said earlier about fate... The week I was finishing up from my job, I got a phone call out of the blue from the top media school in the country, 'The Australian Film Television and Radio School, aka 'AFTRS', informing me that they had recieved my number from a friend in the Industry who had refered me to them... To cut a long story short, they asked me to apply for the 'Graduate Diploma In Radio' course and gave me 24 hours to do so....

I filled out my 6 hour application which included full essays, demo tapes and letters of reference and sent it off to Sydney... A few hours later, my life changed when they called me to tell me that I was one out of 10 students in the country to be picked to study Radio at the highest level, ALL on the week of my resignment... 3 months later, my whole life changed.... I moved thousands of Kilometres to study with a group of people I didn't know with no family, no home, no friends, and no money, to take on what is the biggest challange I have ever faced...

From the life style of a paid Radio Broadcaster to broke student. This week, I have had tooth aches, an empty bank account and a stressed out mind, to the point that today, I almost walked away. I seriously thought about giving it all up... Why am I writing this blog right now?? Not to big note... Not to make me look I'm the smartest and brightest person who got into this mega school that can secure you a career for life once you go through it, but to simply remind myself that I have come so far and that things have a way of sorting themselves out.... To stay focused and believe in my own abilities is something I need to do more than ever...

We will all encounter emotional brick walls at many times in our lives.. The times when we feel like the weight of the world is on our shoulders and you're life, and everything in it, has come to shit... I'm independant, always have been, always will be, but I relise that in the city, you need friends, you need to trust people and ask for help, because without it, those emotional brick walls will get the better of you, and just grow higher and higher the longer you keep it all in...

My goal for the next month, is just to survive... In case you were wondering what I'm going to do about the brick wall that's in my life right now... Well I'm working on that... A good friend, 'Kyran Weatley' has told me I have to take the wall down, one brick at a time.... I am in Sydney for a reason and aren't leaving until I have achieved everything I set out to achieve... If I fail, I fail, at least I can say I failed trying... For those that are in the same boat when it comes to hard times, I hope you draw inspiration out of this quote like I have today....

"No one has written your destiny for you... Your destiny is in your hands, don't you forget that"- BARACK OBAMA

Note to self: 'Situations are only ever temporary'... Here's to hopefully brighter days ahead and breaking down walls....


One Love, One Life....

Friday, May 7, 2010

Singledom Protocol




SOOOOO.. Heres another relationship meltdown blog for you all... Now, I can honestly say that I haven't had a 'relationship' for a very long time, due to the fact that I was stuck in a shitty town with limited good male options... *COUGH, Townsville COUGH*... I CHOSE To remain single BECAUSE I had high standards... Why settle with some drop kick who will cheat on you, have no goals, and want to get you pregnant just so you can fit in with the rest of so called 'society and it's ways'... HHMMMM No thanks...

I never really felt like I belonged in a small town like Townsville... I would say that 90% of my friends in the North had children or were having children and were tied up with some guy and settled down... Not to say that that is a bad thing, but me on the other hand, I was 24, single, making money and had no desire to settle down with just anyone just because it was the 'done thing'...

Then I moved to Sydney, where life is fast, money is vast and the men are hot and good to go... So it's got me posing this question... If you've met a guy/girl, you hang out a bit, you both seem to like each other, but at the sametime, you both haven't discussed the idea of a relationship, is it then okay for you to 'see' someone else if the offer comes along? Are there rules for what you can and can't do while your single? I mean, hey, last I checked, I don't have a ring on my finger and aren't officially in a relationship with anyone, so should I be allowed to see someone else if the offer did come up??

For too long, woman especially have been victim to the 'Maybe I'll hold off on this other guy who's interested in me, just to see what happens with him and I', and more often then not, let someone who is good for them slip by.... Well I say those days are over.. Those days of waiting for a guy to get his shit together, all the while he gets to see other people, are OVER!! Reality check... It's the 21st century and sorry to tell you fellas, but us women have worked out your game and we're gonna use it against you, whether you like it or not ...

Now that may all seem harsh, call me a woman so heartless, but at this current moment, I have had debates with several friends who themselves are going through this exact situation... All I am sayin is, until you have that 'conversation' with the opposite sex about 'what is going on with the both of you', then we as single people should be allowed to do whatever we want and 'see' whoever we want in the mean time... Agree or disagree?

Life is there for living... People hold back because they're scared of getting their heart broken... I myself have been guilty of doing this a few times.... With millions of people in the world, it would be silly not to keep your options open. Yer the love game is a risky one, but our hearts are meant to sing to the tune of more than one person, our hearts are fragile and will be broken at times, and shit when it gets broken it hurts like hell, but our hearts are also strong and will heal in time...

If there are rules for the single person, I have no doubt broken them over the years, but heres my outlook: We only live once, so If someone else comes along, take the chance.. Don't put your life on hold for that 'someone', because chances are, they aren't doing the same for you...

One Love, One Life....

Wednesday, May 5, 2010

Secret Spot...



Sydney... Sunny and hot one day, raining and cold the next... I am loving this weather at the moment, my hair; Not so much... On another note, my love for this city that never sleeps continues... In the past week, I've been exploring yet again. This time, I have found a secret spot, to which I now claim as 'My Spot'...

Picture this... It's a Monday night in May, the skys are clear and the wind is crisp... My friend and I sit on a bench and hear the water of sydney harbour splashing under the wooden dock below us... As we look out infront of us, the city of Sydney and its tall buildings fully light up the sky... To our right, the Sydney Harbour Bridge stands in full glory like something off a post card, with the distant sound of traffic and trains heading over it to get to the north shore... A quiet 5 star restaurant is the closest thing to chatter I hear, as we look to the left to see a deep red moon slowly rising beside the iconic Sydney Opera House...

The inner city of Sydney itself has 177,000 people living in it, and as I eat my Mc Donalds chicken ceaser wrap and watch the ferry to Manly float by, I take in the sights and sounds of this magnificant city and wonder where all the people are? I take a sip of my fanta and can't help but notice that this maybe the best view I've ever had for the price of a Maccas meal....

Sydney, a multicultural city of notorious stories, bad traffic, shopping and high end money earners... As I live day by day in this, the city of sin, I can truely say that beneath all of it's harsh exterior, I have fallen in love with this city and all of it's inner beauty... My only regret is that it's taken me so long to get here and appreciate every part that it has to offer... I'm off to discover more secret spots... Until next time....

'One Love, One Life....